Yesterday was one of the difficult moments in my life. You can read about it here.
In preparation of our FET, I'd been having my share of tests lately.
Two of my tests (my mammogram and ultrasound) came back with not-so-good news. Since my mammogram and ultrasound revealed a cluster of cells that the radiologist was not comfortable with, he's sending me for a biopsy. I just kept praying during this conversation. Praying he would just tell me everything looked fine and that he'd made a mistake.
Instead, he handed me a brochure (which I won't even get into here because it scared the bijeebers out of me), a pink lunchpail (in celebration of breast cancer awareness month), and sent me on my way.
When I got to my car after this news, I cried and prayed. My prayers were met by the Lord. I looked down at my phone and had received this text:
I will heal your heart. Don't get discouraged, my beloved. Pain is a part of life.
But I promise I will turn every tear you've cried into joy, and I will use your deep pain for a devine purpose. Don't try to hide your hurts from me. I know everything about you.
You are mine. My beloved! I'm the only one who can handle your heart and restore you to health and wholeness again. I, too, have felt great pain. But we can go through every trial together.
Hand in hand I will lead you back to my place of peace and joy after the storm. The sun will shine on you again, and your heart will be healed.
I promise you, my princess, that when you go through the deep waters of great trouble, I will be with you.
When you go through the waters of difficulty you will not drown. When you walk through the fire of oppression you will not be burned. Isaiah 43:1-2
Your King and your Healer
God's timing is perfect. He knew that I would need His comfort after walking out of my appointment.
He will heal my body and my heart, no matter what this biopsy reveals.
I am so grateful for my dear sister in Christ who sent me this text. She was sending it for one purpose, but God used it for another. Her obedience to the Lord in that moment to hit the "send" button so that I would receive His message was amazing. God is amazing!
I've had a feeling lately that our FET may have to be postponed, but I never dreamed it would be because of something like this.
So, for now...we wait. Strength will rise as we wait upon the Lord.
Wow how far we've come
2 years ago